About Lexi
I guess everyone has issues, and I need a place to deal with mine. The biggest challenge for me is finding balance in my life. My job situation has been up and down (and frankly, consuming my attention) but I have a fantastic husband, great friends and want to participate more in my own social life… Also, my mother’s an issue, and I’ve recently (privately) diagnosed her with Borderline Personality Disorder. I probably have some of those traits too, and I’m starting to deal with it. So what am I doing here? I’m not quite sure yet. I guess we’ll find out!
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Sarah Johnson | August 24, 2007 at 11:45 pm
I have been reading your blogs today for the first time. Everything you have written reminds me of me, and the way I used to feel. I was anxious and worried all the time, I would have anxiety attacks over things that were silly. My mother has BPD and trying to do what she wanted me to and trying to understand her was killing me emotionally. I have read a book that was enormously helpful. It’s called “Foolproofing Your Life: Wisdom for Untangling Your Most Difficult Relationships.” It’s biblically based but you can discount the religious stuff and still feel uplifted. It was very freeing for me, I actually felt happy after I read it. I haven’t been happy, ever. Also I’m reading “Stop Walking on Eggshells.” It’s good but I haven’t gotten the freeing sense of well-being that I did with the other book. Finally you are not alone, you are not crazy, you are trying to make sense out of world that has been presented to you by a parent that doesn’t have to ability to make things make sense. You can get better, and you’ll get along with others better.
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Jen | March 30, 2009 at 6:20 pm
I was also raised by borderline mother. Once I reached my 30s I realized that I could no longer tolerate her constant phone calls, constant criticism, foul mouth, ranting, raging and abuse. Not only that, but her constant need (or my need) to rescue her. Seemed pretty masochistic on my part. I realized that she would never change (despite books claims that you should try to reconcile and find ways to communicate with BPD mother – B.S!) I broke away from her ten years ago and have not looked back. Best decision of my life. (Get caller ID, it works wonders!)