booze is bugging me again…

ND was fairly drunk last night, but could manage…

tonight he went out for drinks, and while I’m glad he came home not trashed, I was annoyed that he got trashed at home by the end of the night. He had like 5 beers and almost passed out standing up in the bathroom… that means that if baby had awakened, I’m on my own to take care of her… after all day on my own. and yesterday on my own. and every day on my own… just because he’s here, doesn’t mean that helps. If he’s drunk, I can’t hand him the baby and I can’t get a break. it makes me tired. Especially since he went into her room and pet her head and wiggled her feet… Could have awakened her for me to fix. very annoying.

wish I could get him to wake up!

So is this going to be my “ND’s Drunk Again” blog?

It’s Halloween and ND just got home drunk off his ass! Stumbling, slurring, could barely function. He had blood all over his hand and he said he cut it when he fell down the stairs at the Hammerstein Ballroom at the parade after party. Then he fell in the house.

He was last drunk at the A Cavallo party, which was two weeks ago when Halley was in town. Blush said that Thera commented “That boy has a drinking problem!” when she saw how drunk he was. Halley apologized to me for letting him get that drunk. And that night I had texted ND telling him how hormonal and depressed I was. I cried for 6 hours, and was hoping for a miscarriage, and he was too drunk to notice my text message.

I have a really bad feeling about this. He needs to get some help. Now, before the baby’s born.